I think I missed two weeks of posting a post. The output from my script:

Output from my days script:
96 days, 0:31:21.778183
26.301369863

Sigh. I realize that I've become that which I despise. The people who talk about how much junk they eat and how they really want to exercise. The people talking about how fat they are because food is so delicious.

It's really dumb. I think I've somehow fallen into the fat mentality. I haven't been working out and I've just been making bullshit excuses. It's almost like at this point... I identify with being lazy and fat and consuming junk food.

Champions are made through training. By working when other people are asleep. I'm going to go back to my 3 days of working out with 2 of them being night time workouts again. Gym days will be Tuesday night, Thursday night, and Sunday afternoon. I just need to walk to the gym. The weights don't matter. The workouts don't matter. I just need to show up and the rest will take care of itself.

My time bending exercise for this week... hasn't been done yet. But I'm thinking of being like that guy in the ted video and just getting a manicure / pedicure. I haven't ever gotten one.. so I'd think that it would be a time bending experience.

I went to yoga yesterday. The thing is... I was having a lot of trouble just focusing on yoga because my mind was always on work or other things. I think I just need to meditate and exercise more. My lower levels of exercising is messing up with my clear mindedness. Like the  mantra of soul eater - a healthy soul resides in a healthy body with a healthy mind or something. Gotta exercise more.

tl;dr - gym sessions are scheduled in stone. Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Sundays.</strong></p>

This week I've missed my Wednesday Yoga and my Thursday workout. It's interesting how everything work related always falls on Wednesday. On Wednesday I went with my coworkers on a testing session of the Android application that I've been working on. The testing session naturally went into my yoga time and I was forced to skip yoga. But honestly... I could've skipped the testing session and went to yoga. I chose to do the testing session with my coworkers.

I guess... if I could go back in time I would still choose to spend the night with my coworkers vs yoga. The time spent was coworkers was a good bonding experience and something time bending I guess. But on the other hand... yoga is only available once a week after work. And that's Wednesday.

I started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer on Netflix. It's been an interesting show. It feels very power rangers like or sentai. Pretty much every episode is some supernatural thing that Buffy has to deal with and then she deals with it and everyone is happy. I think I've seen too many shows in a sense that watching Buffy... everything just feels so hard to believe. I mean... how come there are so many demons but vampires don't ever accidentally hunt a demon or something. Like... there's a pact where everything supernatural only targets Buffy. I guess it is a television show after all.

I think as a kid I really wanted to watch Buffy but then I could never watch all the episodes or that my parents wouldn't let me watch it. Watching the show honestly feels like traveling back in time because I recognize the actress mainly from How I Met Your Mother.

I recently read this article on the 50 best series on Netflix and Buffy was rated #20+ something. There's like so much content on Netflix for me to watch that I literally have no time to watch everything. Same thing with video games... and books. My video game backlog is growing much faster than the rate that I can play through it. And my book backlog is also growing at a much faster rate that I can read through it. I think I should write an article on just how there's not enough time to do everything and that you should focus on the most important things. But I legitimately want to play all the games, watch all the shows, read all the books.

I went to hip hop class today by myself. It was lots of fun. I think that I'm okay as long as I'm present and in the class. The second that I start thinking about work / the past / the future I start sucking in class. And so... I guess hip hop class trains me to live in the moment.

tl;dr - getting fat. watching Buffy the vampire slayer.</strong></p>

So I previously wrote a short python script that prints out the output of the number of days since the new year as well as the percent of the year that has passed.

Here's the output:
[ishida@ishida-fx420 random]$ python days.py
73 days, 23:39:20.857819
20.0

This week was crazy. In so many ways. I guess I'll just write about the highlights. UFC 185. Blew my mind. I can't believe there exists a lightweight that Pettis wouldn't be capable of finishing given his record against the likes of Henderson/Melendez. That's just so shocking. You have a guy that outclassed previous champions... and then this guy comes and manhandles Pettis. That's pretty mindblowing. I guess it just means that you can't take past performance or beliefs as absolute. I mean... I think I'm an excellent Software Engineer... but maybe 2 years from now... I won't be excellent... I'll only be average? O.O. That's kinda of a scary though. Also one that's really hard to believe given how much confidence I have in my abilities and how much I read / work / practice. But I guess anything is possible.

I went to Barry's bootcamp in SF. It was an interesting experience. A bootcamp cost $30 so I don't think I'll be doing it regularly. It was my time bending exercise of the week. The guy to my right was a cardio machine. He was shorter than me... and he did intervals at 11 mph. I maxed out at 10mph. I guess... that kinda really surprised me. That someone shorter than me could easily run 11 mph. Aside from the expensiveness... I don't think I'll do it because I prefer to be able to track my workouts in detail and the whole do as many reps as you can is kinda not my thing.

Shiet, I'm really out of shape. There was a scale at the bootcamp. I'm currently 150 pounds which is the upper limit of my usual body weight. But my strength is at 60% of my upper limit. Which means I got a shit ton fatter since fat weighs less than muscle. That's kinda a depressing thought. I always aspire to be on the up and up and be in the best shape that I'm in. My software skills keep going up and up, and my I want my physical and mental to keep going on the up and up. I've been meditating 3x a week now and I think my mental is definitely in the best shape I am so far. I guess I just need to work on getting back into the best physical shape I've been in. I want to be able to do the muscle up again. And then try out the human flag. The human flag is something that's still on my physical list. Along with a 6 minute mile.

tl;dr - need to work on my physical side. My tech / mental abilities are at the best it's been thus far. but my physical is slipping so I need to start working out again. nerdy. with science.</strong></p>

Man. I was deathly sick these past few days. It started Saturday Night... and then it went from Sunday til Wednesday. I was feeling like complete and utter death. The sickness just saps your willpower. I always thought that I'd be able to resist torture and stuff.. but when you're sick your brain just fails you.

I couldn't focus because of the headaches and body aches and stuff. Everything just felt like death. Then all of a sudden I'm feeling great now. It's the sign that I'm on the recovery. My energy just spiked up.

I'm tempted to go crazy now that I'm feeling slightly better. But I'm gonna take it easy still. The fear of relapsing into the death sickness is... to close. What I wanted to write about is that there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. When I was sick... all I could think about was death and how life sucks. But now that I'm slightly recovered... I can see all the positive aspects of life.

Just because life sucks right now doesn't mean it won't get better. If your life sucks and you're at rock bottom. It means you can only go up and up. ;)

tl;dr - was deathly sick for 4 days... now I'm feeling hope again</strong></p>

Fuck. I'm sick. I got the flu... along with intense backpain.

Sigh, when I'm healthy I always abuse my body thinking that I'm indestructible. And when I'm sick... I promise my future self that I'll always sleep properly, and rest properly and eat properly. But then... I don't.

I stopped writing for awhile because of the concussion and relapsing into laziness. And now I am deathly sick. How can the flu come with intense backpain. That's so fucking unfair. Fucking bullshit. Blargh.

The time bending this week was a dinner party with coworker. It was fun. I want to write more about what I learned and stuff, but back pain. Fuck this shit. BLARGH.

tl;dr - flu brings back pain. fucking retarded.

I have been super busy and stressed out at work for no reason. I also have been recovering from an injury. So I've been using the injury and the anti new years resolution as a reason to lazy, eat fat food and stop exercising.

I think I may still be recovering from a mild concussion so I've been using that as an excuse to slack off. The good news is I started my stretching exercises again. And I'm actually really looking forward to going to the gym and getting back into shape. I think the prescribed laziness while enjoyable is my standard. I think my habits are actually good in a sense that I crave exercising, stretching, and working on my side projects.

I broke my phone in my big fall that gave me a concussion. I just googled concussion and it says it takes about 100 days to recover from and that you aren't suppose to do physical or mental exertion. Shit... uh. I've been mentally overexerting myself at work. It's weird though, I don't think I've been recovering slower by mentally exhausting myself... but who knows. Maybe I'm making myself dumber by doing work.

I feel like I'm wasting a lot of time just waiting. I broke my phone and I really want to get a new one. But I'm waiting for the Zenfone 2 to come out. Or the Blu Life One 2015 to come out. I'm just waiting for myself to recover so that I can resume exercising.

I also planned out most of my events / travel up until this July. I'm planning on working remotely for the entire month of June in Canada. Then I'll fly to LA to attend anime expo. It just feels that so much of my time right now is waiting. Waiting for the phones to come out, waiting tv shows, and video games. Waiting for my trip back to Toronto.

I know I'm suppose to live in the present and enjoy every moment. And I do, but at the same time it feels like the future can't come soon enough. blargh. The funny juxtaposition is that I feel like I'm getting old. Before I could game until 5am, sleep until 1pm, and repeat. And now that actually wipes me out. So there's the weird contrast of not wanting to get old, but wanting the future to arrive faster. Weird huh.

tl;dr - don't like getting old but I waste time waiting for the future</strong></p>

I missed my Wednesday post and possibly my post from last week because recently I haven't been time bending as much. I've been really stressed and busy with work life and I want to keep my regular life simple and with patterns and less decision making to not tire myself out.

I've been slacking recently when it comes to working out and getting proper sleep and stretching. This weekend my time bending activity was going to Las Angeles and the Disneyland in Anaheim. The events so far have been normal though. I've been to both LA and Disneyland so I guess the events weren't special.

Well, the major time bending activity of the week is that I fucking face planted on the pavement by the entrance of Disneyland. My friend bet me that I didn't have to vertical to frog jump onto this pole that was on the ground. I told him I could do it without using my hands and thus the challenge was accepted

So.. I was wearing my converse on the trip to Disneyland. I should've been able to predict that my converse would have no grip and slide right off the surface of the pole but I didn't. Here's a play by play of what happened. I take a running start towards the pole. I jump and get both my feet onto the pole. The pole is slippery like ice and my left foot slides off way faster than the right. I initially thought that I would land on my balls and be in intense pain, but I think from a viewers perspective... my friend said it looked like I landed on my balls on the pole. Then... after that, I face plant into the pavement without even using my hand or arms to shield myself.  Too jokes.

I hit the ground pretty hard and didn't even shield myself. I think I must've momentarily blacked out. When I got up I thought my balls would be killing me... but luckily the pole hit me on the back / inner thigh. Lucky~. Well... that's about the only lucky aspect of the incident... that my balls are intact. Since I didn't even shield my fall with my arms... my face took the most damage. There were 3 cuts on my face and one of them looks quite nasty. /shrug.

The funny thing is that this reminded me of the time when me and Albert had to return our assignment in the morning after working overnight. The two of us biked towards the University and dropped off our assignment. And then as we were biking back, I on my bike decided to close my eyes for just one second. Turns out that one second was much longer and I lost my balance and fell off my bike. I hit the ground without my arms protecting me and everyone walking around was like "Are you okay?". My friend who was there with me asked me if I was okay while trying to hold back the biggest grin I've ever seen on his face.

Too jokes. After I confirmed that I was okay he started laughing non stop. Today's incident reminded me of that because the friend who made the bet was me was like 'Are you okay?' while holding back the biggest grin and laugh until he confirmed I was fine. I guess that's how true friends act? I'ld probably just break into laughter... no wait.

This other time my friend and I were walking home together and we both jumped onto a patch of ice. I recovered and walked on.. but then I saw that he slipped and it looked to me like he fell in slow motion and eventually landed on his back. I asked him if he was okay before I broke into laughter about how I saw his fall in slow motion and how it was a picture perfect moment. Too jokes. Good times.

I'll be returning to work on Monday was some visible damage on my face. I've decided to say that I got into a bar fight and how everyone should see the other guy. But then I'll probably have to tell the truth. I'll tell all my coworkers that I attempted parkour and face-planted... which is essentially what happened.

tl;dr - went to disneyland. tried parkour and face planted.</strong></p>

Shiet... already the 4th week of January and I missed my Wednesday blog post. My energy has been zapped recently because I think my sleeping is still all messed up. Boo hoo. I have no one to blame but myself.

So the crazy ass thing I did last week. Well, at this point it's almost two weeks ago. I went to a strip club. With coworkers. On a weekday. During daylight hours. Too jokes. We went to the Gold club. I didn't even know it was a strip club when I accepted the invitation for all you can eat friend chicken buffet. It was an interesting experience. Let's just say that. Pushing the limits of my comfort zone.

I need to add back squats into my weight routine. I've been skipping on squats and I think my leg muscles are imbalanced from all the running and cycling that I do. Time to add in the squats. Squats are the ultimate lower body workout. I also need to get back on the reading. I've just been watching so much netflix. Blargh. I blame BBC sherlock for being so damn good. I got another month of netflix just so I could finish sherlock.

Shiet, it's already the second week of 2015. That's 1/24 of the year already gone. Damn. So what are some of the new things that I did this week?

Last Friday I went to hip hop class. Admittedly, it's something that I've done before. But it's good that I went because I feel like while it's still challenging... it feels slightly more natural than when first started. Maybe I'm improving. I still can't do a single move 'properly' but I'm enjoying it and it's a good change of pace. Talk about time bending. Hip hop class is 1.5 hours long, but to me it feels like ages.

I also finally had my 1-1 with my manager. I asked for more vacation and to get reimbursed for expenses. Man, asking for shit is hard for me. I don't know why. I mean... I know that nothing bad will happen and it's totally fine for me to ask. I dunno. I didn't get the extra vacation apparently vacation time is a company / department wide policy. It's all good though because the thing is that I asked. I got approved for expenses which is expected and normal. I wasn't going to ask for it... but the expenses recently exceeded $100 which is higher than the activation energy of asking I guess.  Still, even asking for that was... difficult.

I don't know why asking for things and help is hard for me. Maybe I should see a shrink... it might be some underlying psychology issues. I actually looked up and emailed a psychiatrist. I've always wanted to nap on the couch/bench while they talk to you with your eyes closed. It looks like so much fun. Plus, I was thinking it would be like sports psychology where I'll be able to improve. A session cost $450 and that's for the initial 90 minutes. Ugh. I rather stick with shopping therapy.

I'll write about this in more detail in a programming page but as I've gotten better at Software Engineering... it's increasingly hard to get help. Today, I asked the front-end / javascript specialist for what my shit didn't work. And he looked at it and couldn't see anything. Granted, he only looked for about 10 minutes. I remember back in the day when I wasn't as good - the specialists would be able to help me out so fast. I guess it's good that I'm better now. The downside is that my errors are way harder to track down.

tl;dr - went to hip hop. asked manager for extra vacation and money.</strong></p>

Today I visited UC Berkeley. School didn't start yet so it was mostly empty. The UC Berkeley campus is so nice. It's much nicer than the University of Waterloo. Sometimes, I wish I were American so I could've had the chance to go to MIT/Harvard/Stanford/UC Berkeley. I've never actually visited MIT or Harvard but I'm sure they are both better than the University of Waterloo which I see as a farmland.

I still remember me and my friends waiting for the Burger King opening in Waterloo. Burger King was one of the top 3 food places at the University of Waterloo campus. Kinda depressing. Then again, I think that my imaginary American university life would be pretty much that same as the one I had where I ended up skipping class 75% of the time and barely passing all my courses.

I got to work at the UC Berkeley library today and I finally get my Android development environment set up for work. Now if I want to, I can work on the Android app in addition to the web/api work I've already been doing. I was going to start writing some unit tests because testing is good.

I watched the ted talk on time bending yesterday. And I think I bent time a little today by going to UC Berkeley. I also woke up before 11am which is the first since starting my vacation. The last day of vacation is tomorrow so I'm kinda sad, but I'm also looking forward to going back to work.

Deus Ex Human Revolution Director's Cut on Steam has a game breaking bug so I can't progress forward and my most recent uncorrupted save is 10+ hours behind so I guess I ain't going to be finishing that game. Of the 3 games I planned to play the vacation I ended up finishing none. Well, I still have the possibility of finishing Portal 2. I think Eidos / Square Enix should be fined for releasing a game that cannot be completed. I wish I could demand a refund but it's honestly too much work. It's more about the principle. They released an incomplete and shitty product. Ugh. I bought FF13 on Steam and it also is buggy and laggy as hell. I feel that gaming software quality has gone way done since you can release an incomplete product and then 'patch' it. But then since you already have the customer's money you end up not doing shit and the customer just suffers. Blargh.

There is a ShareTea right next to UC Berkeley. My mind is blown. I'm going to to plan on writing every day into daily in order to ensure that I do a time bending activity. And also just to write more so that I improve as a writer. I've been reading randomc recently and stilts from randomc and his reviews of anime is so articulate and good. He's concise yet he manages to write a couple of paragraphs full of substance. My reviews of anime of jdrama have essentially been OMG this shit is awesome you should watch it. x3 paragraphs. O.O

I guess my 2015 goal for this blog is to write daily. And not give a shit.

shiet. it's 2015. shit. i think it was weird for me writing 2014 in my dates form. and now it's 2015. that's crazy. i think it feels like 2012 to me still. 2012 is the year that i'm used to writing. O.O

first workout of 2015. went to spin class. it was normal but it just felt out of shape since i didn't exercise for 2 weeks and was eating pizza 5 days a week for the past week.

my feet still feels icky, but it doesn't hurt or itch as much now. no idea what happened but i'm on the recovery. vacation for only 2 more days now. then it's back to work. it's kinda weird in a sense that i kinda miss work when i'm on vacation. that said... i definitely prefer vacation over work. or do i?

my sleeping is getting slightly better. i think i slept at 5am this morning and woke up at 12pm. so slept for 7 hours. the only thing that sucks is that i can't sleep. i tried to sleep at 3am yesterday / this morning and i couldn't fall asleep. my mind just kept going.

i've been playing deus ex human revolution at last... and i gotta say it's pretty damn good. the only thing sucky is the amount of walking you have to do on the map and the fact that there is no indicator to tell you how to get to your destination. the world is 3d but the map is 2d so you could be at your destination but then it's like inside the building on the last floor or something.

tomorrow i'll be visiting UC berkeley with Kumar so I'm looking forward to that. I'm planning on waking up at 10am and then having coffee and egg tarts before meeting him at 11am. Hopefully that'll start to put me back on my 9am wake up time for work.

I still have 6 hours today so I can probably put a good solid 4 hours into playing deus ex human revolution

I was suppose to work out more during my time off. And then I got injured. I started 2015 with a weird foot injury. I think it's actually just frostbite on my foot. My toes burned and itched to death. And also pain. So then I couldn't work out.

It's weird how I got injured and having it cost me around 6 days of vacation. I couldn't really focus on doing work because the itch burns. I guess it's the slippage fallacy. Since I can't work out or work, I might as well just eat unhealthy and shit.

I binged watched psychopass season 2, and fate/stay night unlimited blade works season 1. Both shows are so good. I'll write a review for psychopass season 2 tomorrow.

I started reading givers and takers. The book is quite interesting. I'd classify myself as a matcher/giver. I wish I could be a taker, but I don't think I have the personality to be a taker. Or rather, I want to be a taker, but I don't think it matches my personality style. I'm not a fan of sucking up and while I want to be an asshole conflict and dominance isn't my natural style. I could fake it but then it feels like a waste of effort.

tl;dr - started 2015 with injury. binge watch psychopass season 2 and fate/night UBW. reading givers and takers.</strong></p>

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So I'm on vacation time now. Which means I've been sleeping/gaming/eating/gymming/binge watching anime/jdramas in no particular order. I'm kind of just free form sleeping and doing stuff without a schedule. Sometimes I'll read an entire book. One day I'll watch 12 episodes of a Jdrama etc.

Pretty sleep deprived for today though. Actually, I wouldn't say that it's sleep deprived. More like my sleep cycle is way off. I slept at 6am when it was bright outside and woke up at 2pm.

I've been listening to the new Jay Chou and JJ Lin albums. JJ Lina and Jason Mraz blows my mind. I still need to work on my writing project which I've been putting off. I've been playing portal 2 and I gotta say the game is pretty damn fun. I'm not sure how many parts there are but I'm on Part 5 of it.

I recently read an article on hacker news about this guy with back pain which was wholly psychological. I'm surprised that the brain can cause back pain to that extent, but I definitely think it's within the realms of reality. Which makes me think that... my bad posture and my recent physical plateau is largely mental.

Growing up I've had bad posture and I think it was made worse by the constant reminders of my parents. You know how when people tell you that you look horribly sick. Even if you feel well, after being repeatedly told that you'll start to feel sick. Maybe by being repeatedly told that I have bad posture it's become a mental block for me.

Similarly, I haven't been working out in a consistent basis in a sense that when I do go work out at the gym I'm usually sleep deprived or in a suboptimal physical/mental state which makes me feel mentally weak. Even 'light' weights feel heavy. I feel that it's largely mental. I'm struggling to run 2 miles in 20 minutes which is surprising. Given that I should be able to run 12 miles over 2 hours without much difficulty.

t;dr - vacation is awesome. i think i need a mental checkup. too bad shrinks are so expensive.</strong></p>